Full Moon was a delightful celebration of fun, play and love. Everyone arrived to celebrate the moon at our new time 6pm that would allow us more time to celebrate and dream. This year 2 new priestesses joined us...Adi and Michelle. Welcome priestesses! It is always fun for me to sit back in the beginning of our party and just drink wine and chat together, Its that spilling open and letting go that is so wonderful. It allows me to catch up with everyone and get related to where we all are. At some point like magic, we all start to vibe and ideas start to grow and suddenly we realize we have been experiencing similar things in the last few months. We've been working through the same issues and stories. We support each other, validate each other, laugh and maybe cry with each other. We are seen and we see each other,
Then there is time to break bread at the table. We enjoyed a wonderful chinese chicken salad, pomegranate juice with blue berries and salted bread sticks. I really enjoyed the meal and the conversation. We closed the evening with journaling. We saw the difference between being deserving (like a demand or an entitlement) and being deserving of. (attributes we allow by grace allowing something now or in the future). Then we drew our angel cards and created the Month of March with our intentions.
What I saw for myself this full moon ...
Fear and Love cannot exist in the same place. Where there is fear there is no love, joy or creativity. I have a new job but clearly it is kicking up some unmet expectations for what I want in an ideal work environment. I saw how angry I am that there are things I expect that I'm not getting. I am angry that they have no attention on setting me up to win. I feel out there on a limb, all alone and vulnerable and I don't like it. I want to give up and quit or stay and prove something.
Last night I saw there is another way. A way to give up efforting and protecting myself ...and follow Gods wisdom. But that seems scary so I need to be creative in creating structures to support me. I also know that this will need more than the ordinary support. I will need to create a support network of my own that is rich and spiritually charged. What I see is working in a way I have never worked before. I will see things as they are and as they are not and not make them wrong. I will keep looking for what will make a difference in my experience and actively cause it with the Divine. That will align me with my truth and allow me to seek out places where I can express myself authentically. When I authentically express it in my big juicy way I can see now the incredible abundance that will flow with it. Yes I see it seeking out spaces there I feel supported and encouraged in being my big juicy self.
Fear and Love cannot exist in the same place. Where there is fear there is no love, joy or creativity. I have a new job but clearly it is kicking up some unmet expectations for what I want in an ideal work environment. I saw how angry I am that there are things I expect that I'm not getting. I am angry that they have no attention on setting me up to win. I feel out there on a limb, all alone and vulnerable and I don't like it. I want to give up and quit or stay and prove something.
Last night I saw there is another way. A way to give up efforting and protecting myself ...and follow Gods wisdom. But that seems scary so I need to be creative in creating structures to support me. I also know that this will need more than the ordinary support. I will need to create a support network of my own that is rich and spiritually charged. What I see is working in a way I have never worked before. I will see things as they are and as they are not and not make them wrong. I will keep looking for what will make a difference in my experience and actively cause it with the Divine. That will align me with my truth and allow me to seek out places where I can express myself authentically. When I authentically express it in my big juicy way I can see now the incredible abundance that will flow with it. Yes I see it seeking out spaces there I feel supported and encouraged in being my big juicy self.
My cards asked me to...
Listen to the voice of Gods messages around me
Create a God Box to put my worries in
Realize that this job may have some unresolved issues from past life experiences
Visualize success
What I see I need...
Structure of support for my success at work
Getting body work
Meeting with Lucia
Bringing in Merry Maids to keep my house clean
Working with a Nutritionist
Start a Gratitude Journal for my Job
Finish reading the dance
It Felt Love
How
did the rose
ever open its heart
and give to this world
all its
beauty?
It felt the encouragement of light against its
Being,
otherwise,
we all remain
too frightened.
~ Hafiz
